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Tuesday, August 02, 2005

Tue, 02 Aug 2005 04:00:24 GMT

heheh... its 9:52pm and were still lookin for sumthin else to do.. hehe.. nweiz today was a shopping day for me and my cousin stephanie. oh yeah a lot of thanks to tony for driving us around and treating us at quiznos! hehe.. lol.. i had fun. i just hope she doesnt live so far so we could do this more often. and oh my gosh to our surprise there is AE and AEROPOSTALE in victorville mall... whoaaaaaaaaa! but were still heading to ontario tomorrow to see more stuff and to shop more i guess.. heheh.. sad that tony couldnt go coz he started school already but what sucks more is i couldnt go with them to SEA WORLD on saturday coz of work! dangit! oh yeah ive been eating jelly beans all day! freakin stephanie left it near me so i kept on munchin on it! lol.. hehe.. well nuttin more to say.. gotta bounce... nyti nyt guys!

Monday, March 28, 2005

Mon, 28 Mar 2005 23:57:27 GMT

ahem ahem ahem.. its been a while since i last wrote sumthin in here.. heheh.. well not to brag about it but today is my birthday and im so thankful to God for all these wonderful blessings he gave me. Things werent really working well for my family and me since feb. ended but somehow God made a way to make the ends meet and here iam.. i survived! yey! and oh yeah thanks to all who remembered, greeted, called, and gave me gifts. I really appreciated it alot! i was really touched specially from the card that most of the badminton players signed. It was really sweeeeeeet and it was unexpected so whoever made that card, thank you! i want you to know how much i appreciated it. heheh.. umm... anyway my trip to newyork is coming up! woot woot! im soooo excited! friday baby! heheh.. atleast ill get away from cali for a week tho of course ill miss chanel's bday but dont worry girl ill make it up to you! heheh... but umm yeah im needing prayers for my trip. Pray for everyone's safety! thats all.. thanks guys! loveyou! mwah!

Sunday, January 30, 2005

Sun, 30 Jan 2005 22:17:25 GMT

A short poem that i made..hope you like it

IN MY DREAMS

I saw you last night

You were running towards me with a tear in your eye

Saying that u miss me and that u still love me

Ive longed for those words and for your touch

I guess i just missed you so much

Years have passed without me seeing you

And here you are right infront of me

Everything seemed perfect and real

Hapiness and contentment filled my heart

Til i found out that it was just a dream....

Friday, January 28, 2005

Fri, 28 Jan 2005 06:24:23 GMT

hey guys! woot-woot! finals are over! yehey! geesh ive been stressed out lately! S-T-U-D-I-E-S!!!! i doubt it that im still in top 10 coz this year is pretty tough for me unlike last year it was a piece of cake! urgh! Anyways i just got done doing my scrapbook. Yeah i made a new one coz the old one was crappy so yeah.. i love doing it.. it never bores me! Geesh i went to DMV a while ago to get my California Id but then my dad forgot my passport and birth certificate so now i have to wake up early in the morning tom. just to go there! GREAAAATTT! urgh! i cant even sleep coz i just woke up ( well sorta ) and i just drank starbucks! hmmm.. so let's see what should i do tonight? hmm.. oh yeah i didnt really pose any blog about winter formal coz i was busy like really busy this past few days but umm.. ill tell you now.. It was a lot of fun! Chi's sister, AMY, did our makeup.. thanks!heheh.. The place was classy and there were vallets. i had a good time with art, being my date! food was good too. But its just weird how the theme was oriental but then the food was italian.. ** sighs ** heheh.. the dj was pretty good too.. then after that we went to Denny's and stayed there talk, eat, listen to eddy's jokes.. hahaha... i had so much fun you guys! (xyryl, chi, art, eddy, james and nichole) i got home at around quarter to 2am. art's dad took me home.. hmm yeah so thats pretty much what happened that day. Hmmm.. what else is there to talk about? hmmmm... well i talked to my parents about something (well couldnt tell you now what it is) but it made me really happy and excited! hehehe.. well im starting not to make sense so i better end this now.. lol.. latez!

Friday, January 07, 2005

Fri, 07 Jan 2005 00:57:00 GMT

The Lovers of the Heart

In order to form
a more perfect kiss,
enable the mighty hug to promote
to whom we please
but one kiss.

Article 1:

Statement of Love:
The Kiss

1.
Kiss on the hand
I adore you

2.
Kiss on the cheek
I just want to be friends

3.
Kiss on the neck
I want you

4.
Kiss on the lips
I love you

5.
Kiss on the ears
I am just playing

6.
Kiss anywhere else
lets not get carried away

7.
Look in your eyes
kiss me

8.
Playing with your hair
I can't live without you

9.
Hand on your waist
I love you to much to let you go

Article 2:
The Three Steps

1.
Girls:
If any guys gets fresh with you, slap him.

2.
Guys
If any girl slaps you, her intentions are still good.

3.
Guys & Girls
Close your eyes when kissing, it is rude to stare.

Article 3:
The Commandments

1.
Thou shall not squeeze
too hard.

2.
Thou shall not ask for a kiss,
but take one.

3.
Thou shall kiss
at every opportunity.

* Remember *
A peach is a peach
A plum is a plum,
A kiss isn't a kiss
Without some tongue.
So open up your mouth
close your eyes,
and give your tongue
some exercise!!!

Here are a few reasons
why guys like girls:

1.
They will always smell good
even if its just shampoo

2.
The way their heads always
find the right spot on our shoulder

3.
How cute they look when they sleep

4.
The ease in which they fit into our arms

5.
The way they kiss you and
all of a sudden everything
is right in the world

6.
How cute they are when they eat

7.
The way they take hours
to get dressed
but in the end
it makes it all worth while

8.
Because they are always
warm even when its minus 30 outside

9.
The way they look good
no matter what they wear

10.
The way they fish for compliments
even though you both know that you
think she's the most
beautiful thing on this earth

11.
How cute they are when they argue

12.
The way her hand always finds yours

13.
The way they smile

14.
The way you feel
when you see their name
on the call ID
after you just had a big fight

15.
The way she says
"lets not fight anymore"
even though you know that
an hour later....

16.
The way they kiss when
you do something nice for them

17.
The way they kiss you
when you say
"I love you"

18.
Actually ...
just the way they kiss you...

19.
The way they fall into your arms
when they cry

20.
Then the way they apologize
for crying over something that silly

21.
The way they hit you
and expect it to hurt

22.
Then the way they apologize
when it does hurt.
(even though we don't admit it)!

23.
The way they say
"I miss you"

24.
The way you miss them

25.
The way their tears
make you want to
change the world
so that it
doesn't hurt her anymore.....
Yet regardless
if you love them,
hate them,
wish they would die
or
know that you would die
without them ...
it matters not.
Because once in your life,
whatever they were to the world
they become everything to you.
When you look them in the eyes,
traveling to
the depths of their souls
and
you say a million things
without trace of a sound,
you know that your own life
is inevitable consumed
within the rhythmic beatings
of her very heart.
We love them for a million reasons,
No paper would do it justice.
It is a thing not of the mind
but of the heart.
A feeling.
Only felt.

Sunday, January 02, 2005

Sun, 02 Jan 2005 23:03:59 GMT

omg vacation is almost over! awwww i wish we could still extend it for another week. I really had fun.. xmas parties, family reunions, friend gatherings... hmmmmm.... and now back to work, back to school~hello to books and teachers! man just thinking bout it makes me feel so lazy! ill wake up again early in the morning, walk in the freezing streets, wait for the bus... ooooooooo! urgh! My vacation really went by fast coz i guess i was really enjoying it. Chanel was a great help! heheh... whenever i'd get bored at home she'd be around doin nuttin too which makes us do sumthin together! lol... and ART thanks for the boba! hehehe.. lol... ur soooo sweet to drop off the boba here at my house.. i know it was a hassle im sorry.. im such a brattie.. lol... and ohh icha and chanel curly hair works out for you guys! Icha i love your hair! here i go again... hehehe... for reals...long not very thin- not very thick.. superrr straight! heheheh... oh yeah before i forget.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ICHA!!!!! ur prolly in Long beach with ur honey but just wanted u to know that i didnt forget ur bday! STEFF.. ADVANCE HAPPY BDAY TOO!!! (01-04-05) hmmm.. its already 2005... well i hope this year brings a better hope for everyone tho me and chanel will be really sad at the end of the school year coz u know.. you guys are graduating! ur gonna leave us behind.. huhuh.. okei lets not talk about that coz i dont wanna think bout it! hmmm... cant wait til later on this night coz im going to a new year's party with my sisters and friends.. sorry guys i couldnt go to victoria garden with you! ill make it up sometime... iloveyou guys! okei ill stop... bein too emotional here.. heheh... see yah in school! mwah!

Friday, December 24, 2004

Fri, 24 Dec 2004 09:01:09 GMT

IRONY OF LOVE

The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go. When you think of your past love, you may view it as a failure. But when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher. In the game of love, it doesn't really matter who won or who lost. What is important is you know when to hold on and when to let go! You know you really love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if his or her happiness means that you're not part of it. Everything happens for the best. If the person you love doesn't love you back, don't be afraid to love someone else again, for you'll never know unless you give it a try. You'll never love a person you love unless you risk for love. Love strives in hurting. If you don't get hurt, you don't learn how to love. Love doesn't hurt all the time, though the hurting is still there to test you and to help you grow. Don't find love, let love find you. That's why it's called falling in love because you don't force yourself to fall. You just fall. You cannot finish a book without closing its chapters. If you want to go on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages. Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress. It is a lifetime venture in which we are always learning, discovering and growing. The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go. We lose someone we love only when we are destined to find someone else who can love us even more than we can love ourselves. On falling out of love, take some time to heal and then get back on the horse. But don't ever make the same mistake of riding the same one that threw you the first time. To love is to risk rejections; to live is to risk dying, to hope is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is risking nothing! To reach for another is to risk involvement, to expose your feelings is to expose true self; to love is to risk not to be loved in return. How to define love: fall but do not stumble, be constant but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, hurt but never keep the pain. Love is like a knife. It can stab the heart or it can carve wonderful images into the soul that always last for a lifetime. Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in the end. Loving people means giving them the freedom that they choose to be and where they choose to be. For all the heartaches and the tears, for gloomy days and fruitless years, you should give thanks, for you know, that these were the things which helped you grow. Loving someone means giving him the freedom to find his way, whether it leads towards you or away from you. Love is a painful risk to take but the risk must be taken no matter how scary or painful, for only then you'll experience the fullness of humanity and that is love. Only love can hurt your heart, fill you with desire and tear you apart. Only love can make you cry and only love knows why. If you're not ready to cry, if you're not ready to take the risk, if you're not ready to feel the pain, then you're not ready to fall in love. There was a time in our lives when we became afraid to fall in love because every time we do, we get hurt, then I figured that's why it's called falling in love. When you decide to love, allow it to grow. When you promise to love, refuse to let it die!

Tuesday, November 23, 2004

Tue, 23 Nov 2004 06:51:49 GMT

hello guys! wats up? well me nuttin much just chillin here in AV.. its already 11:22pm but i cant sleep! heheh.. anyway i was so happy coz at last i saw one of my best buddies, mariana! We just went to the mall, took pictures and eat.. a lil shopping i guess! man its been like a year since i last saw her so i was really happy! time went by fast tho.. it was 6pm when we went to the mall and the next thing we knew it was already 9 and the mall was closing already! urgh! dangit! yea so we had to say goodbye and gosh i hope to see her again soon! so many things to talk about so lil time! hahah... well i dunno lately ive been receiving blessings from the Lord. Ive been really happy and i know why.. hahaha... .. lol! well lately ive been talking to my ex and its great. I mean things are better now. We are actually talking now after long 8 months?! pssh... i dunno but all i know is that im really happy! Hmmm... if only distance isnt a problem then things could have worked out for us but its okei! after all everything has its own purpose! heheh... i just had fixed emotions. I was happy in a way coz everything as in every lil memory we had comes back everytime we talk but i was also sad for the fact that things cant be the way they used to be.. sux huh?! oh well we'll just see what God wants to happen.. hahah.. so much bout that.. geesshhh its pretty cold in here! there's still snow from yesterday tho they are already starting to melt its still cold! my hands are freezing! heheh... oooooooo.. im gonna see my cousins tomorrow! stephanie and mark! yey! heheh... hey couz are we taking pictures too? im really excited! yohoo! then universal studios on the 23rd! hahaha...ahhhhh.. i wanna go online so bad but both ym and aim arent downloaded in here! im sooooooooo bored already! oh wells i hafta go now... c yah later!

Saturday, November 20, 2004

Sat, 20 Nov 2004 02:07:03 GMT

oooooooooooo.. yea yuh!!! thanksgiving break is hurrr!!!! hahah.. lol... im so excited to see my cousin stephanie and my old friends from GHHS but it sucks coz ill miss chi's party and sam's party.. urgh! oh wellz you guys im sorry.. ill try to make it up someday kei? anyways omg at lunch a while ago.. man the break dancers were good! hahah.. there were people dancin in the campus... shantoya versus her friend too! oooooo.... a battle ey?! hahaha.. it was cool... first time lunch was fun! hahahaha... yea.. hmmm... whats been goin on in my life? well nuttin much im just really busy at school and church... you know homeworks and stuff.. soooo tiring! and oh the induction for honor society was actually good. There were alot of inducties-sorry if i misspelled it but it was fun.. i did enjoy it specially the part where i went up stage... steff and chanel you know why?! hahahah... after receiving the key... then.. you know! hahaha.. lol! joke! anyway it was fun hanging out with u again chanel! its been a while tho since we last hung-out.. oooo.. hey you guys-- alisa, chi, emma, chanelie and xyril we should go out sometime since im not gonna be here for the party.. **tears**.. heheh.. yeah well i hafta go. I still need to do the laundry! byeee!!!

Saturday, October 02, 2004

Sat, 02 Oct 2004 16:28:58 GMT

This week had gone really fast and still a lot of things happened. I had these problems that i dont even know where to start. Things were quite a mess these couple of days for me.. my grades, friends and alot of other things. I think im emotionally sick... doctor.. help! hahah.. lol.. well i guess its just one of those days that im really depress of certain things.. u know... heheh.. well i guess hanging out with my friends kinda helped me but questions are still in my mind.. i want to forget them but it aint that easy! Oh well i guess its really hard to forget something when you are not really ready to.. heheh.. oooooooo.. forget all these crap! im tired.. i want peace of mind.. Anyway, tho things are kinda messed up right now i still get blessings from the Lord. Yesterday my parents bought a TOYOTA-MATRIX for my sister and also for my mom. Yea-yah.. sis we could go out wothout asking anyone now! wooot-wooot! heheh... ahhhh... at least somehow sumthin great happened this week!

"The Art Of Letting GO"

OOOOOOHhhhhhhhhh

Put away the pictures.
Put away the memories.
I put over and over
Through my tears
I've held them till I'm blind
They kept my hope alive
As if somehow that I'd keep you here
Once you believed in a love forever more?
How do you leave it in a drawer?

Now here it comes, the hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that's holding on
How do I start to live my life alone?
Guess I'm just learning,
Learning the art of letting go.

Try to say it's over
Say the word goodbye.
But each time it catches in my throat
Your still here in me
And I can't set you free
So I hold on to what I wanted most
Maybe someday we'll be friend's forever more
Wish I could open up that door

Now here it comes, the hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that's holding on
How do I start to live my life alone?
Guess I'm just learning,
Learning the art of letting go

Watching us fade
What can I do?
But try to make it through
the pain of one more day
Without you

Where do I start, to live my life alone?
I guess I'm learning, only learning,
Learning the art of letting go.

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